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Regret

 once i read about write and you will heal. so this is it. i will write about it. my mother died on May 19th, 2019. so this a story about one day earlier. May, 18th, 2019 it is saturday. regular saturday. its Ramadhan. so i fasting that day. usually every saturday we will go to my parents house. we stay there until sunday. but in this regular saturday i decide to stay at home. that one time. i decide to stay at home. for no particular reason. i just want to stay at home.  nothing happen at that night. we just do our routine activity. and than i sleep. i wake up around 03.45 AM. its Ramadhan so we have to do the Sahur. after the sahur i pray Subuh. and after that i go back to sleep.  Around 6.00 AM my phone ring. its my sister number. i pick up the phone. just one line. and my world Schock. i get up and take a bath. i cry there. after that i tell my wife and i cry as hard as i can. i remember, that was the last time i cry so hard because of my mom.  that is regret. thousand what if runn
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Writing again

 the last time i write was around January 2024. since than i never write anything on this blog. so i start to write again and using English not Bahasa. its May, 6th, 2024. 2024 already reach its 5th months. 2024 going so fast just like 2020, 2021, 2022, and 2023. its feels like you skip those years. i realy don't know what to write. so i just write it without any direction what so ever. 

World Introvert Day

2 January 2024 was a World Introvert Day. i was born introvert. i feel safe when i am surrounded with people who i know personally.  i can talk for hour with 2 or 3 peoples. but when the number added, i will shut down automatically. i like to observe everything. i might look not interested but that does not mean i don't pay attention. i don't like to be a centre of attraction. i like to seat at back row. okay. enough for today.

01 Januari 2024

01 Januari 2024. New year finally arrived. We leave 2023 with various feeling. Sad and Happy, up and down, we going through all of it. Lets pray and hope that 2024 better than 2023. And i made a promise to my self to write everyday in 2024. Lets hope i can keep that promise. And consistently do that. Well i hope this can be a good  starter. I still dont know what to write tomorrow. See you tomorrow.

Morning Lights

Its May 12th 2023. Its around 5.30 am. In Kemayoran, Jakarta, Indonesia. The morning lights was so stunning. I took my phone and have some pictures of it.

2023

Its 9th May 2023. My first post in 2023. 

SMASHING WORLD

 this sentences come to my mind out of nowhere. it means nothing actually, the world just fine. its November 30th 2022. the world cup was held in Qatar, and at this moment they are on last match of every groups. so they will play each other to decide who will go through to next round. In Indonesia everything running quite well, there's some news about homicide, and more homicide. yes in Indonesia you will get lot of news about homicide. i don't know why maybe our people have high stressed level so many people think about killing someone. the last time i wrote on this blog maybe around August 2022, and i never wrote again since, i kind of forget to write here. even though it is not necessary, but i think sometimes we need to write randomly about anything. just to write. or maybe just to keep our brain on the right level of consciousness.  i think that's all for today.