once i read about write and you will heal. so this is it. i will write about it. my mother died on May 19th, 2019. so this a story about one day earlier. May, 18th, 2019 it is saturday. regular saturday. its Ramadhan. so i fasting that day. usually every saturday we will go to my parents house. we stay there until sunday. but in this regular saturday i decide to stay at home. that one time. i decide to stay at home. for no particular reason. i just want to stay at home. nothing happen at that night. we just do our routine activity. and than i sleep. i wake up around 03.45 AM. its Ramadhan so we have to do the Sahur. after the sahur i pray Subuh. and after that i go back to sleep. Around 6.00 AM my phone ring. its my sister number. i pick up the phone. just one line. and my world Schock. i get up and take a bath. i cry there. after that i tell my wife and i cry as hard as i can. i remember, that was the last time i cry so hard because of my mom. that is regret. thousand what if runn
the last time i write was around January 2024. since than i never write anything on this blog. so i start to write again and using English not Bahasa. its May, 6th, 2024. 2024 already reach its 5th months. 2024 going so fast just like 2020, 2021, 2022, and 2023. its feels like you skip those years. i realy don't know what to write. so i just write it without any direction what so ever.